Break

You know what?

Gay bloggers have also a pro life!

Actually, it's my work situation is really shitty at the moment so i will take a break from this blog just for a few weeks i hope.

It was really nice to be able to take some time to think about my situation (boy vs girl) then to discover what being in a couple is but now i have know time for that. Probably i took too much time to think about it and leaving my work going by itself ^^.

Housemates

Incredible!

I share a house with a few housemates but since a few weeks, they are leaving and new ones are coming.

The first one to join is an english teacher who has travel around a lot, actually since his birth. Nothing more to say as he is almost a ghost, wake up late (yes later than me!) and work late. Ah yes, he's been to Thailand and has a "mai pen rai" tattoo, which means "doesn't matter" "live life like it comes" etc, as a big fan of thailand...sweet! On the CO front, i said nothing, maybe he ll know or not but as he is a ghost, it doesn't matte so much and in addition he seems not to care at all with who he is living with.

The third (second later :p) is arrving soon in the house, i just met him once for the moment. Kinda old compared to me and the rest of us (actually i am the youngest!). He has also travel around quite a lot. He seems very talkative and very easy to be "friend" with. Indeed, we (he) were talking about girls etc. and he asked me if i have someone:

me:"Yes"

him:"A vietnamese girl?"

"actually, let's say it straight it's a viet boy" (nb: next time "let's say it straight, i'm not...straight" :D)

=> CO done!

The second one* (or last one :p) is quite the opposite. He's not very talkative (at first), quite shy (he didn't want to tell us his age) and ... may be gay! Why i think that?

Once, i went to propose him to have dinner with me but he just welcomed a nice (boy)friend whom seems utterly gay. He s shy and quite sissy sometimes plus he does some sport to keep healthy and finally he is working on litterature as a professor.

So yeah i know, it doesn't prove anything but i have some kind of feeling he is gay...we will see!

*: i forgot, no CO done with him but i invited him to have a drink with me and my bf and he saw my bf at home on a sunday morning so he might get the idea by himself ;)

gay music

People often says that the "gay music" is a reality and say also often say that they usually set the trend for club. I don't know if it's true or not but recently i realised that i like gay music, is it another proof that i am one of them (in addition to my gayish motobike according to my bf X-( )?

First come, first serve: The rocky horror picture show

The movie itself is really funny and pretty nutty but i love the music because it is so bombastic in a way.

Queen

Maybe everything started from there. I remember when i was a secondary school kid i discovered this band (and his singer but i was naive ;)), it was so punchy and free from the standard i knew. A few months later i went, for a school trip, to Edimburgh and i found the T-shirt, woohoo \o/ so happy. Anyway, i grew up and i still like it though i know for freddy mercury. STOP, he was absolutely not my type :p but he was really a great person to be able to make fun of his sexuality (the famous picture of the band disguised as women) in such a conservative world.

Scissor sisters

I discovered it recently, it's so punchy, modern & kitsch and well shaped for gay. Actually they play too much the gay code i think. Anyway several songs are really nice.

Lucky Lucky twice

I don't know if it's really gay but i love this song since i am in vietnam \o/

nb: promise to do a much more interesting post next time though i have no comment so why? :p

Comical

Disclaimer: Yes i am such a bad boy though not much O.o

Once upon a time when i was young and credulous i met some guy from the dating website just to talk. Actually, i accepted to met him because he discovered quickly what i do and where i work (giving him just a few hints) and also one of his friend was about to work at my company. Anyway, we met, had a coffee, etc.

Today, my boss have lunch with this person, without knowing the guy is gay. Here comes the funny part: this guy is deeply in love... ahem... appetite of my boss but my boss does not like but (again) he accepts to have lunch with him to keep in touch with the friend of the gay guy, as this person has very qualifications for work and did not say yes or no for the job.

It would be funny that the non gay guy comes to work with us so i could tell him about his friend... though his friend would kill me because he is married (and obviously not enjoying it).

Women

... i hate you! :)

First, a few days ago, i did my coming out to my oldest expatriate friend here. She knew me and we talked about our desperate love (we were both bur differently in love with someone that was not, it was a girl for me :p) last year. I thought she would know me and maybe sees that now i am better but yet different. I hoped that she would have guessed that something was on but she didn't guess at all!

She was really surprised but not shocked. Actually she was shocked (in a way) by knowing who is my bf, she was astonished . Anyway she told me that she is happy because i won't get use by some vietnamese chicks.

Second, a colleague of mine told me i would make a perfect couple with one of my flatmate (girl ;)). She said so because i went with this flatmate to a wedding party and we were so nice together !

Although, the point is she asked me today if i am in love because i really look like it. It was not so easy to say no..hic hic! Consequently, i think she really has this way of sensing people and i am pretty sure she will continue to harrass me but for the moment i have the cover of my flatmate, what will it be after?

Finally i don't hate you girls ;) it's just some have this sense and some has not and in this case it's not the good one....

Sleeping with a vietnamese boy

Mwahahahah with this title i should have readers but unfortunately it's not what you think!

Just an anecdote:

I just ask my bf what are his plans for tonight and he answered:" nothing until 1.45 am". Evidently, i laughed but i asked anyway. Actually he's gonna watch the UEFA cup with his colleagues at work!!!

Vietnamese men and soccer.... can't be helped!

To be there

I have always been a lonely person in need of friends. It can seems contradictory but i think it is not. I need friends to appreciate loneliness, loneliness that i need to appreciate friends. It's funny during parties i really enjoy to set me appart and have a look at all those humans cheering all together (afraid of tomorrow?).

I could explain that by my feeling of being different though it took me around half a century to know how i am "different". It is not (only) my homosexuality, it's just a side-effect. I am just someone different, with different sight on the world, my mind full of daemons, my in(t/f)ernal daemons...

Anyway, i was really close to my mother before and only to her (yes i know, so stereotyped). With her death a some years ago, i started to be a little closer to my father but finally by moving away for studies then to go work abroad now i am quite far. At the same he is continuing to stay closer to me but i can't at the moment, i changed too much. My life changed, i'm a grown up (almost), i gain money from my work, i have friends they can't imagine, i have bf they have no idea... i manage my life and it is so different from they think.

Anyway (2), it is not the purpose of this note. Recently my father talk to me of my brother. He is in couple with a "so so girl" (to talk nice). I saw her more than a few times, she is quite cute, not mean but not interesting at all.

I know my brother, he may look like a good redneck sometimes but he is not. He started his own company and after 2 years it's going really good and he is well educated. I still remember one of his first serious girfriend. She was going to be lawyer. They were so perfect together...but they live to far from each other and were not able to live at the same place (big city vs countryside).

Finally, my father asked me to talk my brother but since 1 year i called him once and chatted with him less than 5 times. To call him to talk about his couple, to let him understand that finally he could break up. Yes because he said already it's not going well for them, he just got used to it and.... i think he is really afraid to be alone for a long time, it's not easy in deep country side!

So? I made (unconsciously) everything i could to be far from them and now i should be there for them? I don't even know if, when i ll come back, they will accept me as i am. Well, as you should know, i am a good boy and i will try to talk to him but he can be so stubborn.

...maybe it will be easier for me when i come back then....aaaaaah.... communication my family biggest flaw.